Well, here I sit in Mission, TX bored as ever and thought I would give a little update on how things have been going. This could be a long one so if you give up now, understandable.
She has still not come home and I am not pushing her but they are getting a lot better and I think it wont be to much longer. We have spent some time together a few times with and without baby (Glad our parents love the little guy and will watch him just about any chance they can get. For now anyways.
) and its been very positive. Also I have decided its time to make a few changes in life and some of them not so small (I will get into the not so small part in a min). Not only for myself but for my son and my relationship weather we work things out and she comes back or not.
First this whole her leaving was the kick in the pants I think I really needed to get a perspective on things in my life past, present, and future. I know something its bad that it took something this drastic but sometimes its the major things are what make you stand back and look at things.
I have since went and seen a counselor I guess you could call him just to help me understand some things from my past and some of what caused me/us to end up where we are now and just how to better manage the situation and it has helped greatly and I plan to see this guy a few more times at least.
Now I am not a huge churchy religious person (Kinda got a bad potty mouth sometimes and lots of tattoos and other stuff) but I do believe in the man up there and I have since decided that it might be time to start going back to church when I am can. With my work schedual I never know when I will be home sometimes but when I am I am going to start going again I think. I havent really been there but maybe 20 times since I was confirmed back when I was 16 or 17 or somewhere around there. So about 19 yeas ago give or take. I have also been working on my poor choice of language lately and man is that tough.
I also have had a chance to really reflect back on alot of stuff from when I was single and 'living the life' before the girlfriend came along and it stinks that I got away with some stuff in past relationships that really no one should have and I think it was cause the other people were doing the same thing and I just carried that to a relationship that actually meant something to me for once (Not that the other didnt, this one was just the one that I could feel was the 'one') and in the end it got me where I am right now and over the last month and a half things have really turned around for me personally and now its time to work on saving a relationship with the most beautiful, smart, funniest people I know and the best mother to my child that anyone could ever ask for.
Just a little something I whipped up for her laptop and she loves it.
As for the big change, I was presented an opportunity to move into my mothers right now (My other house) so I could work on getting caught up on a few things and start saving for that house with a garage and a bit more land so when (and if...) she comes back we can have all 4 horses at the house with us. The place I have now is nice and all but its starting to out grow us. When I first bought it, it was only me and my 1 dog and I didnt have alot that came along with me. A year later is when I met rachael and about a year and a half later she moved in and then I got another dog about that same time, then a little later we find out she is pregnant and then along comes a puppy about the same time then 6 months ago we have that little baby and now 3 dogs, a baby, and the 2 of us is a bit much for this house. Plus, I am buying the house on a CD and it will be easy to just get out from under it. Oh yeah... And there is no stinking garage!!! As much as I dont want to move me and my family into my others place there is plenty of room for all of us and our junk plus its a lot more child friendly as it wont be long and he will be on the move. Down side is there is no high speed internet yet but I will make due. lol
Well, thats enough outta me for now and sorry if I bored the heck out of you to much.
Oh yeah... If I move to moms place, that just means more boat money and I will have it done in no time as there is plenty of room there to work on it! Just need to get my other projects out of the garage there first. LoL Project GMC Sonoma is going outside cause I got a boat to build.
